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6/28/2004
ok, so whats up. its been a long ass time since i wrote anything. im soo sorry.. i cant even remember what has happened.. ok.. well for the guys me and brandon are just friends now.. and im not talkin to bob anymore.. (lol) and then hmm.. o.. i hooked up with this kid caio..and then he got back together with his g/f and then now im stuck on this kid dustin which is a good thing i think.. but im not sure where we stand. ..last night was so much fun.. we (jen andrea and i) got realllllllllly wasted. i mean. not jsut your typical drunk. WASTED. we left bitchy messages to all the guys whove screwed us over. ha. it was great.. i think i remember the beach, and then we slept at this kid alexs house (which was the kid i Randomly hooked up with before.. ) he wanted to hook up again and i was like, no. lol i had like 5 chances to get with guys and i didnt take intrest in any of them. i dunno. they bore me. i need something i cant have. .. which im not sure is yet. anyways. i miss 57. i feel like were drifting. but hes got his gurl , and ive got my boys. but i dunno. ill always love him! ~ anyways . what else has happend? buca is good. spaz omg my lover. ~~(i WISH) .. i want him bad. but i cant have him, cus he thinks hes too old. 21? not old .im 17 turning 18 in a few months. omg . im a SENIOR and this isnt gonna go away. ahh! im so excited. and terrified. owell. hehe im out i gots homework i gotta go. xox whitney
Posted at 6/28/2004 by duckywucky
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5/17/2004
omg. tell me how much life can be soo good and then soo bad at the same time.... ugh. so i hooked up with a person from school... ack. not so good. things are kinda weird.
not the worst thing that has happend to me in the last 24 hours.
um, totally what bob. yea. great. so weird now. WAY WAY WAY WEIRD. im serious like i dont even wanna like talk to him, im totally ignoring his phone calls ... but the thing was was i was pushing him.. and then i was like ok.. this is totally different lol....... i told him we werent ready and then i pretty much kicked him out.....can we say one night stand?..... and then
brandon came over.. YOU TEASE lol not fair. thats all i have to say.. and i still have so many mixed emotions forhim its not even funny.
between ricky and bob its like SO DIFFERENT like not even funny.
so.. the partys friday it starts when i get off work... hopefully it will be early, and im a little scared that its gonna get out of hand.. hopefully itll just be like a little get together with alcohol and MUSIC lol .. hopefully itll be good though... ok. well im gonna go..
ugh. kill me i hate boys. and the one i want the most right now doesnt even know i like him.......... UGH
POW
BANG
thud.....
Posted at 5/17/2004 by duckywucky
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5/16/2004
WATS UP ??? JEEZZ ITS BEEN A WHILE. whats new?, well i went to jr sr. by MYSELF and it was AWESOME. so, i dont know why the big drama of the "date"... who needs em? mom left today for TWO WEEKS BABY... CAN WE SAY PARTY? (par-tay) lol... anyways i cant believe what went down on fri night. i totally hooked up with a kid from my school... but hes straight. like i know hes not gonna say nothin ... like what we did was even that bad? lol........ okkkk... lol so, i cleaned from 6:45 am today till like noon. the entire house is spotless. i was really worried about my mom drivin that long distance herself... but she did it :)) shes all i got, i would be devastated if something were to happen..ahhh
new subject. boysss dii dah di di di lol so, this guy, at work. totally in love he is so incredibly FINE and i just want to like go make out in the freezer. <(totally hot.) and he says stuff like .. you looked so good, i totally would have banged you.. and im like thinking in my head.. (anytime hun ;) i know hes a little bit thrown by the age difference .. but he has to be.. he doesnt wanna go to jail.. Hes 22 (he JUST turned 22. ) lol. yea, im totally feelin him, i caught myself looking at his schedule to see when we'd be workin together...(lame) but EFFICIENT lol theres like this other kid at school that i kinda a lil bit like iguess.... hes a goooooood dancer we dance together at like everything we go to. lol for like 2 hours straight with no break, every one looked totally GORGEOUS including megan and andrea and candice all looked drop dead pretty!! all my pics turned out so good. !!!
ok i better go before my computer freezes and i wrote all this for nothing.. lol
MUCH LOVE
whit
Posted at 5/16/2004 by duckywucky
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4/25/2004
MEGAN lol i stole this from her journal... i luvvv you.. and i was reaaaaaaaalllly bored.
-C U R R E N T-
CLOTHES: big T and pink pj pants...
MOOD: so incredibly bored
MUSIC: does commercial music count?
TASTE: apple juice
MAKE-UP: on a weekend day???
HAIR: wet in a bun
ANNOYANCE: my mom
SMELL: im sick, so all i can smell is.. nothing.
FAVORITE GROUP: i think linkin park..
BOOK YOU'RE READING: .... i dont read
COLOR OF TOENAILS: PINK
WORRY: yellin mom...
-L A S T . P E R S O N...-
YOU TOUCHED: andrea
YOU TALKED TO: my mom
HUGGED: andrea
THAT INSTANT MESSAGED YOU: trevor
YOU YELLED AT: mom...(were in a fight) lol
YOU KISSED: i cant even remember jeez i think ricky
- F A V O R I T E -
FOOD: blueberry muffins
DRINK: tooo many
COLOR: deep red
ALBUM: um, i dunno
SHOES: i have a shoe fetish, wrong question.
CANDY: SOUR STRAWS, and reeces
ANIMAL: a brown mare named abby !
TV SHOW: Will & Grace, friends and wild boyz
MOVIE: life or something like it, finding nemo, haunted mansion, way too many more
DANCE: um, sure?!
SONG: the reason Hoobastank
VEGETABLE: spinach
FRUIT: oranges, strawberries and raspberries
CARTOON: spongebob, and the oddparents gotta love em'
- A R E . Y O U -
UNDERSTANDING: i try..
OPEN-MINDED: no, not usually.. im workin on it.......
ARROGANT: oonly to my mom
INSECURE: HELLS NO
INTERESTING: um, u be the judge :)
RANDOM: yes
HUNGRY: i just had cheese It s
SMART: um, i guess
MOODY: not usually, unless it involves a boy, then yes
CHILDISH: with my mom..
HARD WORKING: i believe so
ORGANIZED: i can find anything i want in my room, that doesnt mean its clean. :)
HEALTHY: im young! no way
SHY: sometimes, but not usually
DIFFICULT: i try not to be
BORED EASILY: its called ADD
MESSY: yes
THIRSTY: now that u mention it..
RESPONSIBLE: yes
OBSESSED: i try not to be
ANGRY: no....??
SAD: nope, not usually
HAPPY: i try!! :)
HYPER: depends on what i eat..
TRUSTING: yes
TALKATIVE: depend on the mood
LEGAL?: no for the 18 billion time.
-W H O . D O . Y O U . W A N T . T O...-
KILL: i cant say..
SLAP: i cant say..
GET REALLY WASTED WITH: ANYBODY lets go!!!!!
GET HIGH WITH: dont smoke
LOOK LIKE: i like the way i look
MY NAME IS: whitney lynne.......
IN THE MORNING I AM: tired
ALL I NEED IS: caffeine
LOVE IS: the best feeling youll ever have
I'M AFRAID OF: cockaroaches, lizards, dragonflys and my mom.
I DREAM ABOUT: EVERYTHING especially people
-W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
COKE OR PEPSI: Diet pepsi
FLOWERS OR CANDY: flowers!!!!
TALL OR SHORT: tall
-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: face
LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: ricky at the club to a fast song.. lol he was wasted...
WHO MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: megan and andrea
WHO MAKES YOU SMILE: bob :))
GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: wat kinda question is that??
WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: hehe bob ;)
HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: i hope bob :)
IS EASIEST TO TALK TO: ricky, all though, not so much now... so andrea
-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
SIT ON THE INTERNET ALL NIGHT WAITING FOR THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE TO I.M. YOU? nope
SAVE AIM CONVERSATIONS? lol yea
WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? yes and no
CRY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE SAYING SOMETHING TO YOU? only my mom and people i love can make me cry.
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
FALLEN FOR YOUR BEST FRIEND? lol, story of my life
BEEN IN LOVE? yea
BEEN REJECTED? um, not that i can really remember but im sure i have...
REJECTED SOMEONE? yes
USED SOMEONE? lol
BEEN CHEATED ON? yes
DONE SOMETHING YOU REGRET? yes!!!
LIED? yes
-E X T R A S-
SMOKE CIGARETTES? no
COULD YOU LIVE WITHOUT THE COMPUTER? prolly not
COLOR YOUR HAIR? unfortunatley
EVER GET OFF THE DAMN COMPUTER? yea
HABLA ESPANOL? si un poco
HOW MANY PEEPS ARE ON UR BUDDY LIST? 82
DRINK ALCOHOL? yes
LIKE WATCHING SUNRISES OR SUNSETS? both, but usually sunsets...
WHAT HURTS MORE, PHYSICAL OR EMOTIONAL PAIN? definatley emotional pain.
-N U M B E R-
OF TIMES YOURE HEART HAS BEEN BROKEN: ouch, i dont wanna count. by the same guy too.
OF HEARTS I HAVE BROKEN: a couple
OF GUYS I'VE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): 1,2,3,4 ... ALOT. lol
OF GIRLS I'VE KISSED (NOT COUNTING FAMILY): 4 or 5 lol
OF CONTINENTS I HAVE LIVED IN: one
OF GOOD FRIENDS: a couple like 3 or 4
OF CD'S THAT I OWN ; not that many...
OF SCARS ON MY BODY: im clumbsy ok?
-Y O U R . T H O U G H T S-
I KNOW: what my heart feels
I WANT: what my heart wants lol
I HAVE: a boy
I WISH: i could date this boy.
I HATE: the feeling that i cant talk to him
I FEAR: of being apart from him
I HEAR: my computer.. lol
I SEARCH: strip search? what? huh? lol
I WONDER: if hell call me
I REGRET: ............ omg too much
I LOVE: .........no one ( that took way too long to write)
I CARE: about my friends
I ALWAYS: am in trouble
I AM NOT: a loser, contrary to manys feelings.
I DANCE: good. lol
I SING: in tune
I CRY: only my mom and people i love can make me cry.
I DO NOT ALWAYS: love
I FIGHT: lol, i kick ass baby
I WRITE: with my right hand
I LOSE: people
I CONFUSE: many
I LISTEN: to my mommmy
I NEED: you
I AM HAPPY: iguess
I SHOULD HAVE: slept more today
I am: tired
I care: about my friends
I worry: about him :(
I miss:.....................
ok im done. lol and now depressed. bye
Posted at 4/25/2004 by duckywucky
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4/23/2004
hey wuts goin on.. big writin today.. lol um so whats goin on.. alot here..
so me and ricky took a 'break' which really means.. we broke up for a while i guess.. who knows..i think its the best thing for now. we werent communicating well... and all that bullshit owell didnt even cry, i wasnt even upset.. and all thats saving me from breaking down is bob, lol i just made up a codename.. i went to his house last night and we just chilled and cuddled.. so cute. i miss that so, we watched a movie and got some food and really just hung out.. i guess me and drea are gonna go up there tonite and chill.. who knows i got that driving thing today.. i got a ticket.. UGH so.. u know u gotta take the course to get out of the ticket and all that bullllll.. works good execept for the harrassement i get from the black guys.. not to be racial, its just they grab my ass, and shit and its annoying after awhile..
hmm its FRIDAY and i plan to get WASTED. cus i really neeed to. or just to relax, kick back and hang out u know?
Posted at 4/23/2004 by duckywucky
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4/20/2004
hey guys whats poppin? not pills i hope.. (that was my lame excuse for a joke..) pardon my tiredness. anyways so jeez long time no talk......so the newest thing is i dont know whether i should go to jr/sr first of all i dont have a date.. and its kinda a one in a lifetime thing... i dunno, maybe thats just me.. hmm. ok
so ricky.. is ok... i guess.. things are changing feelings are changing...... maybe its time for a break.. i dunno.. we cant even carry on a decent conversation between ourselves.. i dunno and he never invites me to hang out with him if hes with his friends.. ever.... i hate that.. owell i guess i cant complain. i used to do it too, but i definatley dont now.... i always say hey lets go chill or whatever.. UGH owell heh i guess its ok though hes got alot on his plate now, and i have to respect that, but i hate not being witth him when hes out (not in a weird psycho way) but even after we do hang out... he can go out after that too that sucks whatever i m young............
um jeez i dont even remember this kids codename... owell if u know me ull know who im talkin about.. ive been talking to him lately and it seems liek hes changed.. i dunno i think i still have feelings for him.. who knew? hes such an ass and im such a bitch to him.. why does that work for me? owell.... he invited me over today.. and i really kinda wanted to go.. .. thats crazy...
should i go to jr/sr?
who should i go with ? cus brandon def doesnt wanna go.. lol
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
Posted at 4/20/2004 by duckywucky
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4/13/2004
ok.. i dont know whats wrong or is it me, or whats rreally goin on, or maybe im just reading to hard into this. owell..
the click is good. its pretty sad when you admit your in a click and seriously dont even care anymore. lol me and candice are finally getting along better and i feel like its almost back to normal sorta. my life right now is good, i cant complain. cept school, i wish it was summer. i need to take the SATs again and SERIOUSLY need to get my act together. im spending too much money. im gonna have to get another job, which i dont mind doing its just it will stressss me out even more.
so ricky says to me, " what would you do if we broke up?" and its not the first time hes asked this question ........ i dont know if im just being psycho about it, but my friends tell me im not. thats not something you just throw out in the open. although we are a very diferent type of relationship. i guess you could say.. lol weve been dating on and off now for a year, and thats a long time. ive known him for 4 years and hes become one of my very best friends /boyfriend lol.. but was that a mistake? just say we were to break up, or take a break, i wouldnt like flip out and be psychotic (like he thinks i would) but i would be heartbroken... inside but, on the other hand sometimes things can get way too stressfull and ive been there and dont want to go back. hes my support, really i count on him, i guarentee he knows more about me then my mom does. about my friends, love life (since hes involved) and even when he wasnt involved. i tell him EVERYTHING and i know he doesnt tell me everything but he does tell me alot. ( but then again hes a guy.. and what guy really gets that emotional with you...... lol) i dont know whether hes stressed out or its me, or what. im just plain confused. and i dont know whether to take that as a breakup hint or just a simple question like he says it is. i love him alot, he really has been there for me when no-one else has and when i really need him. ha and if he was gonna break up with me, hes gonna have a tough time now, seeing as i jsut told him how much i love and depend on him. haha lol -
everythings gonna be ok.
xoxo love whitney
Posted at 4/13/2004 by duckywucky
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4/8/2004
hey guys long time no talk. wow its been a long time though anyways life is good cant complain, been chillin mostley but some reall fun times over spring break too.so who knew? i look like im 20. ~ some guy came up to us last nite and bought us drinks. (me n drea) lets see all the spring break accomplishments ...
hung out with megan and david, went to dennys..
hung out with jessy (LONG TIME NO SEE ) HAD SOOO MUCH FUN went to the beach and the mall and all over everywhere..
hung out with drea, dinner everynight.. lol and then a couple just chill with brandons, haha lol *flannigans but really mulligans.. no really go on... laid in andreas FREEZING COLD POOL and then her raft sunk, which to me was acctually pretty amusing. lol
got my first TICKET for none other than running a stop sign, go figure and i got a girl cop, which sucked even worse. hmmm was gonna go to boomers. but that was the night i got a ticket and was grounded for the night, which my mom took alot better than i thought she would, which is crazyness.. andreas moms insane, she now thinks im "decietfull" shut up i cant spell. and for what i dont even know?? wtf??? ok, so ive visited the beach many days on the break, hmm i dont know what else, but i still havent written my reasearch paper and im gonna be in big trouble.... oweelllll.. lol i keep saying ill do it but i wont lol. hmm what else me and ricky are doin good. just chill mode. u know? david wants to get with me, at least from megans not so quiet (inside voice lol) opinion. lol which is funny.. hehe ugh. not really all that comfortable with him, like i can tell he like wants to be more than friends with the way he talks to me on the fone.... and calls me every god damn 30 seconds. lol AHH lol hmm what should i do tonight? matt and mike called me and andrea to hang out tonight... wtf.. lol.. but ill probably go anyways after i get outa work.. is that bad?? just to see whats up, not to get with anybody, im definatley satisfied with what i have rite now.~ im such a little whore. go figure ive what 3 people ~ one being a black guy. yea, lol ahh regret ,is a horrible thing........... anyways that about raps it up for now. this is long . if u actually read all of it comment. lol
Posted at 4/8/2004 by duckywucky
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3/9/2004
hello, wuts up nmh hehe just got off the phone with mi madre, todos esta bien en mi casa, lo siento para hablahispanola porque estoy (butchering) this espanol. lol well my weekend was good. i would write in spanish but it takes way too long. maybe if i could write it..
friday -work and then off to rickys house, changed went to a club, that pretty much sucked, it was fun, but seriously there were no more than maybe 25 people there. that doesnt qualify as a club. at all. ricky didnt think so either, but he was feeling pretty buzzed by the time i came to pick him up anyways. so, he tagged along wiht me cus i pretty much dragged him, the poor boy, he loves me :) and i love him :) hehe then we were gonna go to a party, but we ended up takin the party home :* and then lol, jk ya, u thought u were gonna get details, but ur not. lets put it this way. i needed water when we were done. LOL. ok u know too much already. needless to say i spent the night.
sat- so tired from work i just went to bed, talked to mike were goin out soon, hes my baby i wanna squish him :) then i just went home and stopped by Pjs to talk to anthony and jeremy (my thugs) i cant believe i just wrote that. lol leo said i had a nice body and jr. said i was 'lookin good' lol great.i have 2 25 yr old puerto ricans after me, just wat i needed lol
sun i think i watched movies all day and ugh thats all.
im sick again. UGH y ????? i have noooooo idea, ive been thinking alot about god lately. i feel terrible. :(
got my nails did. UGH dont even get me started. soooooooooooo pissssssssseeeeeeddd offfffff.
there PEACHY PINK its disgusting, but it kinda grows on ya a lil . .. well see. im never goin back eveer again. yuck.
me and ricky are good ! im happy i hope hes happy too. which i think he is. his friends are down from college for spring break. i hope he has alot of fun with them! im trying a new approach wich is dont be pissed off. which i think the WHAT is helping. thank god, i needed some help on that one.
lol xoxo bye
Posted at 3/9/2004 by duckywucky
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3/4/2004
hello?! woow red today huh...well anyways.. i cant make the font bigger, owell SQUINT PEOPLE. lol anways.. well to answer megs journal..
i thought we were good?! me and andrea have some good times, but we do work together too, its also hard cus you live in boca, and everytime i call you, you already have plans. me and andrea understand each other but shes not my best budddy lol we both dont have boyfriends and alot of times maybe were ignoring each other, but it seems like you put oscar before you put me, and i hate that, but w/e im not gonna make a big deal about it, but if your feelin ignored, call me once in a while and maybe we can do somethin together.
and as for candice, i just dont think it will be the same ever again, our relationship will never heal i think , and i promise im not the only one who feels that way just the only one who gives a shit to say something or has the balls to say something.
hehe i promise im in a good mood too lol !!! anyways... so FRIDAY i cant wait. im goin clubbin, and then ima prolly sleep over at either jens or jens thing across her house lol. wellllll it should be interesting, cus supposedly candice and jen and michelle and andrea and me and shara, i invited david and his friends to go, and theyve got alcohol...... and brandons going. well see. lol
but thats if my mom lets me go, and i dont plan on telling her the whole story either.
hehe life update*** hahah
ok, well i g2g xoxooxxoxoxoxooxooxoxoxoxoxoxo ok, too much fun
Posted at 3/4/2004 by duckywucky
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HEy wElcOmE!!
mY nAmE Is Whitney im 17 and i live in POMPano beach baby FLORIDA !!
email me at duckywucky57@cs.com
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